Sunday, May 23, 2010

So much so fast

Too bad I am on duty; there are some good pics that could be posted. Then again they are all posted on facebook (for the most part), and that is my plug to say if you don't have facebook then you are missing out on something. My old man and I go back on forth for it's worth. It should go without saying that I find networking to be a huge tool in my life, and facebook has truly made my world a lot smaller. Especially been living in Japan I find all ways of quickly connecting with my world back home of use and great worth. I think my dad only sees facebook as this virus that opens him up to be bothered by people he really never liked, and never really knew. That is true, that is a sacrafice I am willing to pay for exchange of keeping in touch with old time friends, creating new friends, and I may never know when I mean to call upon to someone who I will have to ask for their help. Facebook is the gateway to so many options. Hey though, that's just me.

Wow, 50 posts. It's hard to believe that it has been so many!! I have begun to copy and paste all my blogs onto Microsoft Word, and I was amazed at how much I have written and shared for the world to see. My Japan story is not short, so far I am at 175 pages. Yes, that includes pictures and paragraph breaks, but still the fact remains that no one was kidding when they said that I write too long of posts at a time! Time flies when you're having fun, and I have always maintained everyone has a story to share. Thing is with me though is that I like to actually have people read my story. When this is all said and done my blog will be printed off, and copies will be made. That is something I am looking forward to very much. More importantly I will like my grandmother to read my blog. Grandma Mongin isn't into reading things on a computer screen so I have a feeling she will appreciate the gift I will give her. With that said I know how much Grandma hates gifts that don't come in the form of chocolate, but still I think everyone gets the point especially if you know her, and how much she loves to read.

In a way I make it a point to not read my previous post(s) before I start a new one. I am aware that things may overlap and it may seem like I am repeating myself. This is noted, but remember that everything I say will be again reread in years to come. If it is brought up more than once it must mean that it is weighing heavily on my mind and thoughts. Let this be a disclaimer to my supposed failing mind!

First thing is first. I have decided not to complete my EOD package. This may come as a shock to many of you, and in a way it is shocking to myself, but I feel that this is the best thing for me. To save a lot of already written words, I will post an email I had to a doctor here below. This doctor knew of my EOD ambitions, and periodically would forward me emails of articles revolving around the field. This is my reply to him:

From: Rastall, Calvin W. HM3
Sent: Tuesday, May 18, 2010 8:06 PM
To: Locke, Jonathan LCDR
Subject: EOD

Thank you for the emails, Sir. I appreciate being thought of. As much as I
enjoy the articles, I must tell you though that I have changed my mind on
EOD. This revelation only came on Monday night, so you're not too far out of
the loop. On Sunday I was laying in bed having one of those "what do I want
to do with my life/when I grow up" conversations with myself when I was
trying to find sleep. EOD was not on the list. As cool as I think it would
be, and as much of an adventure as I think it would experience myself to, it
isn't something I'm hellbent for anymore. EOD is something I've come to
realize you have to totally committed for, and I'm not sure if that's me. An
EOD Chief came into the clinic earlier this week for a hearing aide
consultation...he's 33 years old. I don't want to be that guy. The wear and
tear and all the traveling might be fun for a while, but I could get bored,
lose my focus, and find myself in a major situation at the most inopportune
time. I don't want to be that guy. It was incredible to see the support I've
had to gain behind me, and part of me feels like I let some of them down,
but the cross-rate has been on my mind for about 13 months now, and I have
reached a decision. Dive Med Tech (DMT) is not out of the question, and I
will continue to my physical/hyperbaric chamber test, etc just to make sure
that option is still possibly available.

v/r
HM3 Rastall


EOD is a field that takes much commitment. As I was told in my interview with the EOD locker, it is a lifestyle. I did not think after much thought that it was for me. I'm not going to be 33 and needing a hearing-aide. I hope this all make complete sense for everyone.

Dive Medical Technician (DMT) is next on the docket. I wanted to become an EOD tech most of all because it could get me out of being a pharmacy technician the quickest. That was the wrong reason for being an EOD tech. Now, I have talked to my chief, and he said he will call the detailer seeing if he can get my obligated service as a pharmacy tech waived sooner than the 3 years I am contracted for. Right now I have 2 years to go. Depending on manning issues (in my favor) and how hard he throws his anchors around (because rank talks in the military as we should all know about now), there is a possibility I could get waived and eligible to go to DMT school after Japan. That is the most ideal. The DMT package and EOD package are essentially the same thing. Wednesday I get pressed (the date has been officially set), and I will have my interview with the dive locker and master diver. That is crucial. If I have his support that can only help me.

What is a DMT? Well, they obviously specialize in dive medicine. I will learn a lot about dive science. Through Kristoph I have become familiar with the dive locker and their DMT. He does more diving operations than actual corpsmen work. He said he knows guys who he went to school with that have been attached to special warfare commands and are now going to jump school. A DMT can do everything a rated diver can do, and they are the complete medical side of the house on top of that. They can get their diver warfare pins, become supervisor qualified, and wherever there is a mission, there is a corpsmen. The sea/shore rotation is also more fair than EOD as well. At first I wanted to be a DMT, but I found out I would need to stick out my obligated service as a pharmacy tech first. I was too impatient to do this. Now I am willing to do what it takes, plus as I suggested earlier my networking is well placed to help me out even that much more.

HM1 Martinez has received official word that she will be leaving in the next 30 days. This is good and bad. Good because that is what she wanted, and a happy sailor is a high moraled sailor, but again it is bad. We have a good team working here at mainbase, and with her being separated she will be discharged leaving the fellowship to be broken. HN Garcia and I both hate working out at Hario. He has his reasons, but I don't like it because it is SO slow and that leads to mediocrity, and that leads to restlessness, and restlessness leasds to complaceny. I'm already not thrilled to be doing what I do for a living so this is just one more stepping stone to overcome. Adversity seems to be my middle name when it comes to working in the pharmacy. It's like a battle I will always try to fight and the monster is always trying to get out of the cage. Learning to contain my disliking has been on the biggest tests of them all. Also with HM1 leaving that shortens the pharmacy on-call watch bill by a week. More on-calls equals more work for everyone else.

Good news on the baseball diamond! Our season is finally over!! Well, at least I'm saying it is. Interesting cluster-fuck here, and I'll try to explain it. We have a team of 7 kids, but one moved away and now we only have 6. As you know it takes 9 players to complete a full line-up. If anything is hit in the outfield it only spells bad news. Well, the trophies were given to us on what I thought was the last game of the season, a 0800 game. After the game, which we won, I handed out the trophies, said my final words, and sent the kids on their happy way. Coach Kim "Meanmachine" Ryan and I then went and had breakfast. We talked for about 90 minutes, and she dropped me off back at my car which was still at the field (we took her car to the diner). I was just about to leave when I got a phone call from Kim saying that Jackie Patterson, the youth sports coordinator, said we had another game to be played at 1100!! No one knew about our double-header that day. Not me, the other coaches, or the parents. Luckily there was one kid on my team who had stuck around (one of the better hitters), and Jackie rallied to have a few other kids from other teams come play for us. Turns out the kids who stuck around were essentially an all-start team of 7-8 year olds! There was nothing I could pitch they wouldn't hit. When we accidently ran up the score, I had purposely strike these kids out so the other team could bat, that's how bad it was. So yes, we won the second game too. My story gets better. Turns out on our schedule that we have ANOTHER game on June 5th!! That leaves me at cross-roads. I want to have my season stay ended, but that will only look bad. I told these kids they were done, and I'm sure the parents were happy about that annoucnement too. Tomorrow, Monday, I will email the parents and give them the "bad" news. I will give the kids off this week from practice, and be back in the saddle one more week for one more game. On the otherhand I could stick to my guns and tell the higher powers that be that we forfeit the game. I will take the temperature of the parents first.

Been logging some really good emails to some good friends. With my computer being shot to Hell (the notebook is still in the mail), I can't call anyone. It is really taking a nip on my calling card, but I'm okay with that. What I've been also doing is writing some long emails to friends. I like doing that in a way, especially when I'm at Hario and I have nothing better to do with my day. I also read my godmother's blog, and I will give a shoutout here and say thank you for referencing me. Blogs are always fun to read.

I did not chaperone the prom. They had enough volunteers the way it was. I was asked though to help out at the next dance though. My work with the school is not finished though. There was a going away party for one of the divers, and Steve Cassner was there with a friend strangely enough. Steve is a major player at the high school as he coaches almost every sport. We have gone out drinking a few times and he is a good guy. I asked him if he was close to the athletic director and he said that he will probably be the athletic director in a couple of weeks. I then asked him on the possibility on making a swim team for the high school. He told me that he'll look into it and bring it up with the incoming principal. Now folks, if this happens, it will have exceeded every goal I have ever set for myself at this point in my life besides being accepted to college and walking-on the swim team at UWGB.

Swimming isn't over. I have began the process of getting registered with the Nagasaki Swimming Association. This way we will have meets and actual competition. No more just practicing. Problem is everything is in Japanese, and I don't quite have the skills to do this by myself. Granted between Kristoph and myself I take care of the administrative ends of the house, but if it isn't one thing bogging me down, it's another. For the swim caps and boy jammers it was a time zone issue, and here it is a language issue. If we can pull this off it will be another feather in my cap. One thing about swimming I hate though is it is hard for people who don't understand the sport to really understand just how much work and time it takes to make something like this work. Espeically for two guys who sat on a couple of bar stools flirting with the idea to begin with.

About the Mt. Fuji climb. I ran the idea past Kristoph. He doesn't want to do the MWR trip route. Instead he wants to climb it ourselves. So we have reserved a van and we will make a roadtrip up there the 4th of July weekend. He is bringing his wife and I have yet to name my travel companion. While we are up there in the Tokyo/Yokosuka area we hope to visit our friend John Benningfield who has recently taken a job at CFAY. Time is flying by and it will be that weekend before we know it.

Have I written enough for one post? I hope so because I am going to bed before my watch!! Morale is high, note that.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Intervention

It's not like that TV show (though I think that program is AWESOME). Get me right, I'm not hooked on cracked, not huffing gas, or drinking mouth wash cause it's cheaper. Maybe intervention is the lack of a better term. I could say "stood at parade rest behind closed door with department head, chief, and work center supervisor in room for 1 1/2 hours." You know, which ever sounds more appealing to the ear. I will say it was not a "no shit" parade rest, but a half-rest. Let it be on the record I am not supposed to consider what happened an ass-chewing, and upon further review of the situation I will agree, it wasn't. We could just call it a recalibration of path.

Excited to know what happened? I'll give a brief review. So there I was, on-call duty. I forgot my phone in a car. Though I called using someone else's phone arranging to get mine back, I did not think about calling the clinic I was phoneless for the hour that it would take to get it back. Well, of course there was a patient in that hour that needed my duty. They called, and called, and called. When I got my phone back I had 9 missed calls. Some of them was from my department head/pharmacist, and the other was from my work center supervisor/mentor, HM2 Oldenburg. When I got on base, he was just leaving from doing my job, they called him into work. Though he isn't much of an ass-chewer, he got his point across very fast he was pissed off, and rightly so. Then the doctor of the duty, the good lieutenant aka Dr. Margraf took his turn getting up to his shoulders in my ass. After that I called LT Quach back and he did his best to eat me out (he too isn't much of an ass eater either). I thought the situation was settled and I learned from my mistake. Of course this was wrong, I still had to go through The Good Chief, HMC Bennett. Now, I've talked about Chief Bennett before in previous posts. I like him, a lot. He doesn't wake up to destroy people, but he is the best in the clinic to go old-school military ass-chewing. He never calls it an ass-chewing, but I left feeling pretty sorry for myself and if I hadn't realized how much I messed up, I really did when I left the meeting on Monday.

There the 4 of us were in the pharmacist's office. It was made public how I don't put my best foot forward when I'm working in the capacity as a pharmacy tech. I agreed to this, but I couldn't tell them why. I don't know why not. Even though I hate my job, it IS my job, and I need to cowboy up. It's my duty. Then something was said from Oldenburg actually that I never said to anyone else here in Japan, and it wouldn't surprise my mother (who says it constantly): if there is something I want or find interesting, I put 110% effort into what I'm doing, but if it's something I despise, it's so easy I lose my concentration. It was like that in high school sports, in swimming, and coaching. I left the meeting asked to sustain my concentration and put my best effort in doing my primary job. I was also asked to evaluate my own performance via our evaluation form, and share it with Chief the next day.

Of course there was more that was said, but those are the main points I felt needed to be shared. It should go without saying that I've put some thought into the meeting. Most of all, get my attitude back in check. My job is very serious, and people actually do depend on me. I love getting credit, attention, and recongition. A problem is my job really doesn't entitle those unless I do something wrong. Is that the way most jobs are? I'm not sure. I can produce 100 perfect prescriptions in a day, but it's the 1 I messed up on that everyone will remember. That's a little pressure on me. My guess EOD is just like that though. That one bomb I mess up on, and it isn't someone else's life I'm putting in peril, but my own. Initial success or instant failure.

I submitted my request to be nominated for the Caduceus's Committee secretary position. The Caduceus's Committee is a clinic-ran organization that internally helps improve morale and welfare of the clinic staff. Up until now I have scorned the organization citing I was too busy and internally too important for it. Why would I spend more time helping out the clinic when I want nothing more but to spend as much time away from it as possible? I have to change that mentality. The Caduceus's Committee could be seen as like the student council of the clinic, and I'm okay with that. I probably won't win because of my attitude towards the committee from before, but I want to show I'm making an effort. I should become a paying member first and start going to weekly meetings first!

Also, I requested I help chaperone the high school prom. I know a lot of kids and parents who are either going to the prom or have kids at the high school level, and it's one more volunteer opportunity. Plus I wanted to put cross it off my list of "things I did." Unfortunately there are no more positons available, but I was given other opportunites. More to come on those.

The Mt. Fuji climb season is underway, and this WILL be the year I do it. One reason or another I did not do it last year, but this year I will be serious about it. Again, my list of "things I did." How cool of a story would it be to say that I was on top of Japan?! I really don't know more information than that. Probably tomorrow I will stop in the outdoor recreation shop to get more information. That climb will probably be in July.

Big week for the swim club. Both the swim caps and men's jammers came in the mail! They both look really sharp. Kristoph and I agreed to introduce them to the team on Monday. We will also bring up the swim meet schedule with the Japanese community teams. Pretty motivating stuff. Kristoph and I also registered for the master's (adult league) swim meet in Nagasaki in June. I'll be swimming the 50 and 100 free and the 50 butterfly. Wish me luck! I think we will have a caravan of swim team members to have come and watch us.

We dropped our last baseball game. Sometimes she goes, and sometimes she doesn't, this week she didn't go...that's just the way she goes. I have a good feeling about this coming week though. The kids have had a good practice. Speaking of baseball, it has been hard to watch some of these Brewer scoreboards. How we could use some decent pitching!!

I'm about 5 minutes away from throwing my computer off my balcony and then going to bed to sleep like a baby. I think my fans are starting if not already fry. The damn thing just shuts off. Wish there was a geek squad around! So, if you wonder why I haven't been as talkative online, that's why. I only have about a 10 minute window before my monitor goes black.

Kiyoko is coming to visit this weekend. That's the girl I met through Darryl's girlfriend. We talk about every night via email. Her English is picking up faster than my Japanese which makes me wonder why I need to learn Japanese at all! I'm just kidding, but seriously. I also went on that date with the doctor. It was a bit of a awkward situation. To be honest I feel like my "resume" is leaving me a bit under-qualified, but I suppose it went decent. We are both really too busy to see much of each other so I'm not too worried. Kiyoko will be coming for John Benningfield's going away party. That will be epic, and I can't wait. I just hope I remember to bring my camera!

This Friday is standard-navy PRT. That's just the normal situp, pushup, swim routine. I'm not worried at all. In fact, I hope to swim my 450m in sub-6:00. My all-time fastest time is a 5:40 yards. It's weird cause the clinic is kinda looking for me to crush the swim time. It's not like they're looking for hope or anything, but they know me as "a fish," so there is some pressure to perform well. Next week I'll be tested in the EOD PST, and that's the test that matters. I've been really swimming to master my side-stroke form and I've been doing plenty of pushups and situps. If there was a pullup bar at the pool everything would be gravy. Again time will tell on this one.

That's about it for me. I'm going to try and see Iron Man 2 with the swim club on Friday. That line is going to be huge!! The doors open at 5:30 for a 6:30 show, but we're going to meet at the theater at 4:45. Hope it's worth it. Other than that I am about good with story-telling for this week. Morale is stable. Just have to constantly remind myself that patience and understanding is a journey.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Crossroads

Before I get into all of that, I want to give a big shout-out to my cousin, JJ, and his new wife, Cassandra!! From what I last heard they were wanting to be married in June, but they decided to expedite the process, and now they are Man and Wife. I am very happy for them both! This marks the 2nd of 5 those cousins born in 1987 to be married. One of these days I'm going to make it one of these weddings. The '87 gang is an interesting group. All 5 of us are kinda really different from one another. I think the last time we were all together was either Grandma Mongin's 80th birthday party or Grandpa's funeral, but either way it has been a few years. I suppose that's just how big families are though, right?

As far as I know, there are only 2 grandchildren of Grandma Mongin's in the military. My older cousin Sarah, who has now separated from the service, and myself. That is fine though, though I think the military is not a bad choice, I do believe it was a last option for me. Now that I'm in I have my feet on the ground for once, and that is a good feeling. It's easier to call myself a man now that I am faced with real responsibilities and "summer vacation" no longer applies to me. Bills are paid every month, a budget is established, and the debt seemingly never goes away!! More to come on that last point in a minute.

A lot has happened, and the best time to write is on duty. The last time or two I was on duty though I did not get a chance to write for one reason or another. One of those reasons was because I was applying to tuition assistance. This summer I'll be taking 2 classes: intro to public speaking and intro to computer based systems. Because I can't remember if I wrote it in my last blog, I am only 14 credits away from obtaining my associates degree in general studies from the University of Maryland University College, or UMUC. I will be very proud of myself when I can finally say I reached this milestone, and it has been a certain long time coming. When I have friends all around me in all around the nation going to graduate school, completing their BA, or establishing careers, I sit here in the navy buying my time. The ironic thing is I may be already establishing my career and I don't even know it yet!

Next week is my standard navy PRT. No run or pullups. Straight situps, pushups, and swim. For the swim I can use goggles and swim freestyle too. This leads me to the EOD PST. I have qualifying scores, but they aren't impressive enough to get the EOD locker excited yet. Last week I had my interview with the uppers in the EOD locker. It could have went better. They could have told me to get the fuck out of their office and see them again in 3 months, but they didn't. Instead they said I would be tested every 2 weeks. This is the most encouraging news I could muster. The philosophy is "stickability," and it's certainly being tested right now, but I also know that's just part of the test. How bad do I want this?

Last night I picked up Kristoph and his new wife, Carlie, at the airport. I'm so glad to have him back. We had a nice talk on the way back to the base. Full of stories and updates. It wasn't a problem at all to pick them up, and I'd do anything like that for a friend all over again given the chance.

My chit is currently being routed to co-host the weekly sports radio talk show, "The Penalty Box." I'm drinking buddies with the two guys who do it now, but one of them, John Benningfield, took a job in Yokosuka and will be needing a replacement. I stepped up, and hopefully my command will grant me permission. You could say it is just another nod to my Uncle Gordie as he used to do just this when he was in the army. This should be already known, but I'm a whore when it comes to attention, and nothing gets my name out there faster than the radio for all of Sasebo to hear me.

This marks the one year to go mark this May. It also marks the last month I can submit my Overseas Tour Extension Incentive Program (OTEIP) request. This is an opportunity where I can stay in Japan for another year...and I'm at the crossroads as to whether or not I want to do it or not. The incentive part leaves me with 4 options. I can either a) A salary increase of $80.00 per month, b) Thirty days Rest & Relaxation (R&R), which does not count against the Sailor's 30 days of annually accrued leave, c) Fifteen days R&R with a free round-trip commercial flight from homeport to point of debarkation in the continental U.S. , or c) $2,000 lump sum.

The pros of this is I can stay in Japan and collect more money than if I were in the states. In the end of day isn't it all about the bread and butter... and Benjamins? I will have more time to train for EOD as well. I will have 2 more chances in Japan to pick up 2nd class as well. Also, for those who are thinking about visiting me, I will extend their window to do so. Most importantly to me though, is my Japan story complete?

The cons is there are a lot of people back home impatiently awaiting my return to the states. How do I tell them that I am staying for yet ANOTHER year? Will they believe that I'm making the right choice?

This is why I've begun my survey process. I've been "talking it out." When I write this my list has been short, just a couple co-workers and one other old name...I called and asked Sarah. Why I asked what she thought is beyond me, but for some reason I had to get her opinion on the matter. Maybe because of all the reasons why I can't/don't want to be with her I also admired her ability to listen to me and help me decide on things. Because she is in a position of zero-authority in my life anymore I had to take what she said into minimal consideration (that is a private matter), but a phone call to her obviously led to other topics. She is dating the guy who I come to not like (his name shall go nameless, but he has been mentioned while we were still talking, and it was a less than tasteful decision of hers in my opinion). Either way she seems to be doing fine, but I'll try hard to not put any pieces of her puzzle together. I did too much of that, but she is just so terrible at keeping things from me even if she never says anything about it. Just by who she runs with, her job situation, etc.

Last Saturday we won our first baseball game. Not sure if we're improving that much, or the team we were playing was that bad. Either way winning makes coaching that much easier. Both in handling the kids and amongst the coaches as well. Only 5 games to go, and then I will probably announce my retirement. I need to concentrate more on the swim club, EOD, and college. Maybe not in that order, but those are my 3 projects lined up for me.

I've been trying to learn more Japanese and going on more dates. Since Nicole I have been on a streak of dating more Japanese girls. One girl, Saaya, is a lifeguard, and I have been asking her on a date since December. She FINALLY said yes, and it was a double date with another one of my friends and a friend of hers. When it was all said and done, I realized that I didn't want to ask her on another date as funny as that may seem. We are too different, and that isn't a bad thing, but she is more of the partying type, and I'm more of the belly-up-to-the-bar type. Besides, flirting with her at work is just as nice in my humble mind. I have also been talking to this girl named Kiyoko. She is nice, lives in another town, and I met her through my friend Darryl's girlfriend (whom is Japanese). She doesn't speak much English, so things have to be taken slow. I won't talk too much about her since there is still so much to be discovered on this one! My third date will be this Sunday. A swim parent has a friend, a doctor from Nagasaki, and we will have lunch together on Sunday. Time will tell on that one too! Though I'm not getting too deep in anything, I'm finally starting to spread my wings a little bit. It is an okay, but weird/different feeling.

Water polo match tomorrow. Polo is pretty much the highlight of my month. Not sure on the participation from the staff, but the kids are almost as jazzed up about it as I am. They have taken a few minutes at the end of each practice this past week to work on their skills from a team parent. No way am I going to coach the enemy!! I have ordered the boys suits, and let's pray for a miracle that the polo caps I ordered on the 16th of April finally arrive from England tomorrow. The swim caps will also on their way...the charge was put on my credit card yesterday actually. Now we just need to get the girls suits ordered and get a meet schedule lined up!

This past Friday the dive locker called on me for their help. I went out with them on the boat and what's called "tended the lines." As the divers jumped in the water and swam to the dive site, I was responsible for feeding the oxygen lines to them. Rather cool experience. Plus I was able to network with the dive locker just that much more even without Kristoph being there. In appreciation for my help, they agreed to press me in the hyperbaric chamber free of charge (it's part of my EOD package, and normally they "charge" a case of beer). I hope I get more opportunities like that. It also got me a free beer next time I saw them out in town.

This past Tuesday was my first sick day since working at the Wilderness. Not sure what it was, but I felt just completely awful! I slept for most of the day, and though I felt better, I'm still feeling the side effects of this cold 3 days later.

Overall I'm a little vexed. Not sure what to do with the OTEIP program. grumblegrumble.